Splattered Thoughts

Because it’s quiet.
Because I need to fill the emptiness with the click-clack of my keyboard and with my useless, meaningless and cheap thoughts.
Here, I’ll give them to you for free.
When the tough fall in love, there’s no stopping them.
When you wish upon a star, you’re just another fool.
When you love as hard and as long as you can, it doesn’t matter because the only thing that does is if he loves you back.
When you give up and you take that one last dying breath before completely collapsing, nobody’s going to drag you up and breathe life into those tender little lungs of yours.
Because when you love vertical stripes instead of horizontal stripes, you’re doomed for disappointment.
Because when you cut up your heart in little pieces and feed them to him one by one, he’s gotta choke sometime (there’s just too much and he’s just not hungry, can’t you see?)
Because when you need, you lose yourself to it.
Don’t you rather want? Want is a choice, or so we tell ourselves.
Because I don’t have any left in me to give, not pieces of heart nor vertical stripes nor the strength to drag you up and give you that one breath.
Because when you’re stretches thin and nobody’s giving in return, you turn so cold that nothing and no one matters (being needed, I rather be wanted)
I love you.
I just can’t do this anymore.